| bored.....soo maybe time for a post?
well ive kinda gotten to the point where i dont care about certain things, i mean there
are other things worth worrying about, like my studies, my friends, my health....i mean other things will fall into place, and what ive heard is that when u least expect it...life has a funny way of working itself out, who knows what the future holds....im kinda excited to see what happens and a bit apprehensive...but it will come when it comes and im trying not to wish it here too quickly 
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| I realized something today.....if I get nothing else in my life.....I want love. I also realized
that if I live anyway like my parents do, I don't want to be in love. What I mean is that I will hurt the one I love if I am destined to live like that, and that is something that I could never do. Then again, maybe I am afraid of commitment. Afraid that I will hurt someone. Is it better to deal with the loneliness of being alone or the pain that can come from loving someone. I hear that the latter is better, but I dont know if i believe that. Any advice?
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| I am a worthless piece of shit....I really am. I have discovered that I am a horrible bitch of a person and thats why I cant keep friends. I am shallow and have nothing to give anyone, why anyone wants to be around me or to be my friend I will never understand. I am immature, selfish and lazy and will always be alone.
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| so when is it right to ask for help? i mean when is it ok to tell someone u need a hug....or u need to talk....does that sound selfish? or is it in ur right as a person to need these things once in a while? when does someone out grow being shy enough to turn to someone and say "i need so and so or such and such" as the case may be. why is it that i always feel that asking for help is a burdeon on other people, but in the same case i want to be able to help them when they need it? is it in human nature to be selfsufficient, to not ask for help because it is a sign of weakness?
in other news.....had a huge fight with the rents today, majorly big.....but its only a month and a half until school, until i get to see my hall hallers and other rpiers everyday.....i wonder how that will be?
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